Sunshine after the rain

I believe everything happens for a reason although i might not see it right away.No matter what i think or feel, the most important thing is i learn, accept and move forward in a way that benefits me..much better next time i don’t make someone a priority if they only make me an option. After all this while, i learn to be accepting, kind and forgiving to myself because thru it, i only able to be accepting, kind and forgiving to others.

Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak everyone:)

Ramadhan is here again.May this year be a blessed ramadhan kareem for all of us...moga kita semua mendapat keberkatan di bulan mulia ini.May Allah guide everyone to the right path and forgive us all.Once again, salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to all Muslim all over the world,happy fasting peeps...;)

..and it only happened today!

Feeling a little down today..passing by the emotional part of life..song by erra fazira realy fit me well currently..it's painful beyond belief..i know it will be better, just i don't know how to survive until then..time to move on..now i'll become a heartless person..it much better tat way,i guess~

Penaku menari mencoretkan
Sebuah puisi kelukaan
Gurindam jiwa
Cinta dan airmata
Di kamar hati ini
Masih ada sembunyi
Kenangan yang tak mampu
Ku lemparkan jauh

Penaku menari melakarkan
Gambar kesayuan masa silam
Tinta bersulam biru
Warna kerinduan
Berkaca jernih ingatanku
Biarpun dikau telah jauh
Dari pandanganku

Manisnya pertemuan
Pahitnya perpisahan
Segala kini tidak dapat
Untukku bahasakan
Semua kini kaku
Tiada lagu merdu
Setiap madah baris kata
Bukannya lagi buatmu

Kini berteman sepi
Kini aku sendiri
Suka dan duka
Dalam meniti gelombang
Kembara panjang

Jauh melangkah pergi
Tidak menoleh lagi
Kenangan silamku
Tinggal tertulis kini
Dalam sebuah puisi

Penaku menari membariskan
Puisi sebuah pengalaman
Gurindam jiwa cinta dan airmata
Di kamar sepi ini
Titisan membasahi
Dan aku tidak tahu
Pada siapakah untukku luah rasa

My one last hope

really in kuciwa mode..nothin much i can do right now..listen repeatedly to the song by english boy band,Trademark..the tears keep coming down and i juz can't make it stop..tissue pleaseee:(

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do


That's must be something love can do..i wish~

I'll fly away and leave all this to yesterday

The moon of my night has been stolen and i'm kinda drifting away at this moment..the passing day seems to be pretty miserable and this miserableness really kill me inside out..it's really not easy to be me.Currently i'm facing a conflict of life which hurting me emotionally and break me into pieces..it's just too personal to share with..i did regret most and remark it as the biggest mistake in my life..stupid me..should give a slap to myself.I figured out that life would be exactly what i made it to be and i was prepared to make it be whatever i wanted.Just there's a shortcoming where i had no idea what i wanted it to be..everything was all confused..how dramatic my life had been and i really hate it..sounds like i have to reboot myself and give myself time and space to fix all this..damn pathetic!

Even though it has been a rough moment, there is a part of me that moving ahead into the new chapter of life and leaving all yesterday's matter behind.I hope that the coming days will bring with it d great things in life.May Allah give me strength to walk thru my hard time..i'm full of confidence that Allah's hands will always be extended to me and guide me to the right path..Allah SWT the merciful~

Hello Medan 2010

Last weekend, my family and i were on vacation to Medan which remark as capital of North Sumatra Indonesia. This trip has been planned last minutes one and as for Medan, since Airasia Low cost Airlines flies there everyday and it only takes about an hour to reach there from LCCT, so there's not a big deal i guess. We took off from LCCT at 7.45 am and arrived Polonia International Airport Medan about 7.35 am local time. Medan is the third largest city in Indonesia after Jakarta and Surabaya. We stay in Tiara Hotel Medan. Even this four stars hotel a bit pricey but it considered as worth staying hotel since it located in Medan’s city center, and give convenience and ideal for leisure to everyone.

During our stay in Medan, most all of the eat-time,we had our meals at Rumah Makan Garuda and Restoran Simpang Tiga. This restaurant served us nasi padang and we really enjoyed it.The place which brought damage to my pockets was Pasar Ikan, but not that badly koyak compared to my previous visit to Tanah Abang,Jakarta and Pasar Baru,Bandung. Those two places really made me loose my breath several times..hee. Pasar Ikan is well known with the array of kain batik jawa, hand woven telekung or mukena and batik blouses. This place is quite crowded and there's so many rows of shops selling all kinds of stuffs. I also went to Sun Plaza, one of the shopping mall in Medan.

A quite short journey, 3 days 2 nights stay was yet exciting and my Medan vacation wasn't complete since i don't have chance to visit Lake Toba, Samosir Island and Berastagi this time..it's all about time constraint..so there will be second chapter of Hello Medan..just dun know the exact date yet..grinn~

A time,a place and a reason

Hey peeps..as everyone concerned,Ramadhan is coming less than 15 days..how fast time flies and i still can feel the immense of previous Ramadhan..regarding my life,everything absolutely good and work according to the flow..so far,my research study progress seems fine and can be considered at the right miles where it supposed to be..nothing much to update since i'm having quite same schedules each day..sounds bored aitt but frankly to say i had so much fun being a student..still. That's really me..the greatez part being a student is i'm not attach to working hours 8am to 5pm whereby i hate tat part most..those hectic situation really can kill me instantly..really really do..sometimes i need a chilling especially when me myself encounter tense and stress and i think the best way for me to have a breathtaking is having a vacation..every time i'm having a getaway,it's kinda relaxing moment ever..time to forget all the workload for just a short period of time and to do the brainstorm..that's really good refreshment for me so far..sort of.Well,there's 3 more vacations to go this year..that's the planned one..hopefully there's no add on anymore..hee. I'll having family getaway to Medan this coming Thursday and it juz a short visit. Singapore with my besties will be this coming October while rombongan cik kiah to Jakarta and Bandung will be on 12th to 15th of November..that's a great satisfaction for me and also denote as a reward to myself after working so hard on my research work. Nothing to loose if you really enjoy every second of it and surely having a getaway is great if only u have sufficient money inside ur pockets...grinn. A visit to Paris is my next shooting star..hoyehhhh~

Plenty princes keep coming my way but sad to say the recommended one is a clingy typo.I'll feel good if only i have a heart of stone..no compromise, no contradict and no offense..lol~

It's 3 am and i couldn't sleep

Hi my Mr Diary so called..it's been quite sometimes since my last blogging..it's now almost 3am and i'm here..still awake.It was awkward when i don't have much thing to say..kinda lost myself in this middle of the night. I'm so0 lovestruck but i did something stupid for hurting someone special in my life. I noticed love comes when it supposed to come, no need to search for it, it came its own way. I clearly know what i want from a relationship and if a guy can't give me that,then i don't bother. Well this time, i may have actually found it. He's the most incredible, loving person that i've ever met in my life. This is my confession and this is really my redemption. I’d never been attracted to someone else in the way i was attracted to him and now my world is falling apart. I’ve always been able to control everything except for my heart. I think i'm falling in love with him and it feels good. This really who i am now and i would like it to be this way. I've never been so sure of anything. But today seems a gloomy day and i hate for what i'm doing to him..nothing much i can say right now but he's really the one who touch me deep inside..i felt sorry to him since i can never be the girl who's right for him and i'm not perfect and i never will be.I've hurt myself by hurting him and i wish i could find one best word to say and fix everything. I know he might not want me back for all the terrible things i've done. I'm so selfish since i never care about anyone except for myself. This time d pain let me know that i'm capable of feeling and now I learn to appreciate everything, most importantly i will appreciate him.I dream he'll be my shot at happiness and i know there must something love can do.I believe everything gonna be alright one day and love will find the way since everything comes naturally at first place..i wish~

Perhentian Island Vax

What a wonderful escape to Perhentian Island i had last weekend..It only took 1 hour drive to Kuala Besut Jetty and about 30 minutes boat ride to Perhentian Island. This island is divided into two, which are Perhentian kecil and Perhentian besar and we choose Perhentian besar. I took a ride on a speed boat from the Kuala Besut mainland to Perhentian Besar island. Upon arrival, i'm a bit speechless, no words could be comparing for the beauty of it. Awesome scenary and mesmerizing view of the island really catch my eyes..Allah the Almighty!

I stay at Everfresh Chalet which the place have very basic facilities, but kinda clean and comfort. Beaches around the island are awesome and easily accessible by walk and this was truely Island stay..awesome!!There is plenty to do on the island such as beach volleyball, kayaking, snorkeling and etc. The island was quite stunning though and i had so much fun with snorkelling activity.Kinda greatest memory ever and surely with great person of course..wink~

I had so much fun during my 3 days 2 nights stay over there. It turned out to be a wonderfully relaxing trip and I am so glad i did it. I'm proud to say that I was able to overcome my fear and be in the ocean and it was the first time for me to go snorkeling. The view of the corals underwater was breathtaking and it was an amazing experience. The island is really perfect getaway to escape for a weekend and relax on the beach away from all headaches stuff of every day life. Perhentian Island is indeed a nice place to go and worth-spend vacation and i'm planning to have my second vacation to this island..too sudden right??Lol~

Umrah & Ziarah 2010

Alhamdulillah..syukur kepada Allah S.W.T dengan izinnya aku selamat kembali ke tanah air dari menunaikan umrah.It was my first time being there and frankly speaking i ald fell in luv with the places. .Makkah Al-Mukaramah and Madinah Al-Munawarah.Looking forward to be there again andai diizinkan Allah S.W.T..x tergambar oleh kata-kata how it feel and i felt very lucky to be among tetamu Allah dis time.

I've been there with my family members last 2 weeks.I took direct flight to Jeddah and surely Malaysian Hospitality was my great choice.Eventhoungh the flight delayed for 2 hours,but i retain all the semangat menuju Baitullah. Anggap semuanya ujian Allah and i keep berdoa supaya semuanya dipermudahkan.

We arrived in Jeddah quite late, close to midnight. We then took a bus to Madinah Madinah is about a 5 hour ride by bus. Upon arrival and checking-in at Fayroz Al-Shatta Hotel in Madinah,it's ald fajr..so we had our subuh prayer at d hotel and had our breakfast. Al-Shatta hotel remark as persinggahan jemaah Malaysia and d hotel pretty close to Nabawi mosque..about 50 meter walking distance. After lunch and prayers, we went on our first ziarah to Nabawi mosque by our respective muttawifs, Ustaz Shukri.

My first step into Nabawi mosque really impressed me out..all d senibina kinda things indeed unique and it really melambangkan kehebatan agama islam itu sendiri. All muslims around d world dtg ke masjid ini dgn satu tujuan yang sama,menziarahi makam Rasul kekasih Allah. Perasaan sayu dtg menyelubungi diri..terasa amat dkt dgn Ya Muhammad Ya Rasulullah..begitu besar pengorbanan Baginda dlm menegakkan syiar islam and i felt lucky and sangat2 bersyukur kerana dilahirkan dalam Islam.

The next day,we did ziarah to Quba mosque and Qiblatain mosque and also not forgettin Jabal Uhud. Quba Mosque is d first mosque ever to be built in Saudi Arabia. It was built when Prophet Muhammad first migrated to Madinah from Makkah while Qiblatain is the with the two qiblahs. This is the mosque in which while performing a four rakaah prayer, Prophet Muhammad performed the first two rakaah facing Baitul Maqdis (Jerusalem) after which he received a decree from Allah to do an 180-degree turn to face Kaabah in Makkah. The remainder two of the four-rakaah prayer was performed facing Kaaba and since then the mosque got its name.

After 3 days in Madinah,we heading towards Makkah Al-Mukarramah to perform Umrah. It was mid night when we arrived in Makkah after traveling almost 5 hours on the bus from Madinah. The first obvious concern after we arrived in Makkah was to complete our umrah. We had earlier done our miqat at Bir Ali, a mosque one would stop for solat and niat umrah before proceeding towards Makkah to perform the umrah. My first step in to Al-Haram kinda memorable. We proceeded to perform our tawaf. The seven rounds were completed pretty fast as there were not so many people since it was late night. Immediately after the sunat tawaf prayer, we proceeded towards Safa to start Saie We had to walk from Safa towards Marwa and vice versa, completing seven laps. I found this even tougher than the tawaf. It was almost Fajr when we completed our saie. We did the tahalul, and we're free of all the pantang larang in ihram.

The next day,we performed visit to historical places in Makkah. Our first stop was Jabal Thur. In this mountain, there is a cave in which Prophet Muhammad and Abu Bakr As-Sidiq took refuge from the idol-worshiping Arabs who were desperately wanting to kill them. After escaping from the enemy, Prophet Muhammad PBUH and Abu Bakr migrated to Madinah. Our next stop was Jabal Rahmah. This a hill where Adam & Eve first landed on earth after they were banished from paradise. Nothing to see here except one tugu as a remark this is d place where Adam and Eve met.

The next day we went to Haramain museum featuring exhibits from the two Haram lands and mainly focusing on the two holiest mosques, Masjidil Haram in Makkah and Masjidil Nabawi in Madinah. Before heading off to the Meeqat place, that was Hudaibiyah,we stopped by a camel farm.

I spent bout 6 days in Makkah and alhmdulliah i myself successfully able to perform umrah for 5 times. Before taking off to Malaysia, we stopped for prayers at this beautiful mosque which is called "The Floating Mosque" as it was built just beside the Red Sea with a portion of it on stilts on the water.
After that we proceeded on to Jeddah International Airport for our flight back to KL. This was a really awesome trip and i sweetez moment ever in my life. I pray that Allah grants me longevity as I sincerely hope that this will not be my last visit to the holy lands of Makkah and Madinah..God willing:)