No more and no less

It's a rainy day in Terengganu for few days and it literally affect my health condition..me currently having flu, fever and cough..when it's raining, i felt like being at home and quickly think of sleeping, therefore my body starts feeling tired..oh my..really feel uncomfortable with the runny nose..affect me emotionally..sigh~

but I love the rain!

pray tat i'll fully recover soonest..lotsa tasks waiting..really need strength to complete them all. I'm grateful enuf tat all my loves one alwiz comes across me whenever I need some care, support and guidance.

Welcome 2011..goodbye 2010

Salam all..today is d last day of 2010..few hours to go for 2011 to arrive..i wish tat 2011 'll bring a better year for me..i didn't make any new year resolutions so far..yet good to b true,i usually don’t have a proper one since i find them so difficult to keep..but for dis year and ahead, i'm thinking to have short listed of resolutions that should be easy to keep and that will go a long way towards ensuring a successful year for me, surely with God's willing..hoyeahh..i wish that my new resolutions 'll hold up longer than those of the years past..amin

Guys..i'm wishing you a very happy new year 2011 and may you find happiness and prosperity all year thru..xoxo~

Beat of my heart

How fast time flies, in few days we will be welcoming another year..2010 seems to be a good year for me..hopefully year ahead will b good as well..i'm not yet having any ideas about my new year resolution..that's why i'm eager to find out as well..predicted that i'm not going to have long listed resolution coz i'm afraid i might not accomplish any of it..huhu..enough to have only up to five resolutions..wuhuu..sometimes, it's true that its hard to live your life when your dreams are always so much better than reality..but there’s a lesson that i learned, everybody has moments of weakness in their life but there's also a moment of greatness tagging us along..it just d matter of time frame.

The storm inside me..omg

Wut a busy week i had but i'll alwiz ensure myself to find way for blogging..hee.Day seems busy as usual, but there's always a room for me to create something fun. I just came back from KL yesterday..done for raya shopping..whee.It's ald fifteen of Ramadhan..halfway to go before all muslim will celebrating Hari Raya..how fast time flies. I alwiz wish there were no sorrow, crying or maybe pain in this world at any point in my life. I'm getting better each day..thanx Allah for giving me the strength to counter all thie shortcoming. I hate being stereotype and i know everyone has their own way of saying and doing things but as far as I've concerned, straightforward is the best way..absolutely no beating around the bush..too good to be true..lol. I believe love doesn't have to hurt and showing it and living it has another story itself..and this time i think it is worth for me to wait since there's still few commitments still tag us along and we should give ourselves some space and time to settledown..well,i think it's not an issue here..all i can do now is making the best of it. It felt good typing all that out..I feel renewed and refreshed..he.Well,busy moment ahead..actually I have so much to blog about but seriously not enough time to..though there's something worth writing..huhu.Will try to with God willing..hav a great day,peeps~

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

Somewhere..somehow..someday

When i get hurt, sometimes it helps for me to just turn back for awhile and walk away.It gives me myself a moment to regain strength and clear my mind to help myself deal with the pain.Several times I feel like running away and just escaping from everything else..but i knew, no matter what I do, life do catches up on me. I wish I could post a more cheerful snapshot but recently i've been at hectic stage of life..so sorry peeps!!. People do say, if your spouse is spending more and more time with new “friend” then there is probably more to it than mere friendship.Whatever the reasons for the friendship, it’s a big warning sign and one you should take seriously.It is not a good to love someone who belongs to someone else coz it only lead to ruin their relationship.I'm not sure about where these feelings will take me but surely i have to erase everything and take over it.I’m not going to just leave everything hanging and i know I shouldn’t be feeling this and honestly i tried to avoid it, tried to ignore it and even distanced myself. I wanna be happy for him just like any good friend should feel and wut else could i be any happier. To whom it may concern,i'm truly sory for everything..it just happen beyond my circumstances but x worry..we r just friend and will always remain as friend..nothing more than that..too good to be true.
It’s still a long road ahead and my battle of life is not yet over but I know in God’s perfect time, things will be made perfect according to His will. There are things that are simply not meant to be no matter how much we try.If a relationship is truly meant for us, love will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.Sometimes we just don’t realize that what we’re looking for is something we already have, we just couldn’t realize it and sometimes we just take for granted the people who matters to us the most..appreciate them before it’s too late..wink~

Sunshine after the rain

I believe everything happens for a reason although i might not see it right away.No matter what i think or feel, the most important thing is i learn, accept and move forward in a way that benefits me..much better next time i don’t make someone a priority if they only make me an option. After all this while, i learn to be accepting, kind and forgiving to myself because thru it, i only able to be accepting, kind and forgiving to others.

Aku yang hampa

Well, it's been quite some times since my previous post..kemalasan yang melanda ditambah dengan jiwa kacau..huhu.Needless to say,I'd fall for wrong person..again i felt so left out and broken..this uneasy feelings could last a while until i able to find my strength back. Oh my god, this is totally freaking me out..i nearly think he's the right one for me..everything seems beautiful when I'm with him but now only i realized i gotta myself wrong. .as for me,i attracted to him due to his character..he's d coolest guy on earth..i adore him and get knowing him was not a mistake but fall for him too sudden considered d biggest mistake ever..i know he's not tat ready to give any commitment and i also dun have any power to force him to do so..seriously i never felt any kecewa feeling worst than this..i like him and he did say he likes me too and ald consider me as his special one..but we have different thought..i don't have any heart to have any cintan-cintun so called relationship coz i'm too tired for tat and this time i'm looking for the confirm one..looking for my other half or 'husband' to make it short..frankly speaking,i'm so0 into him but i know there's a great man out there who ald made up for me..who tend to share life with me..for what i know,on our way to meet MR Right,there's is MR Wrong..wut can i say now..lesson's learned..get knowing someone deeply then only talk bout love..oh my..when i have a heavy heart,i tend to let music speaks for me..the only song suits me now on is 'Patah Hati' by Ari Lasso..

Welcome 2010,goodbye 2009

Hey all...wish ya a very Happy New Year 2010. It's been way too long since my last post. I was almost afraid if I went any longer I might forget how to blogging..hee. Today we are leaving of 2009..a year that have passed so quick.It’s now the time to reflect again about the usual stuff and set up a new resolution.I think i should always learn from the past, so that i can focus on what i myself really want to do in the future. In due time, i will revert back to how i were previously and feel like failures. Not to minimize the importance and value of trying to be the best that i can, but this year will give me much challenge to a new resolution..i'll try to look at all situations through the lens of love.

I am very happy to report that I am now a postgraduate student and looking forward to have my master degree.

Hope 2010 will be an amazing year for me.:pray:.

Unbreak my heart

I promised that I will write regularly..hehe..da bersawang da blog ku..lack of time to update mine..hmm...not really about the time constraint,it's really all about mood of writing...ilham kekadang x muncul,..heee. It’s funny how life does loop the loops, twists and dips. But no matter how the ride throws me I always move forward..day seems like to be a long period to go through..i dun know where to start but what's the most is my heart already broken into two..i don't want to point to someone that used to be my other half but what i am today is because of him.

It was dramatic when i just realized that he wasn't the right one for me. I've thought about this..this is what life looks like..now me myself will work hard to the wounds and scars that has left on my heart. The most important thing that I have learned is that I can't change other people, but I can change myself..I know the longer the relationship lasted, the longer it will take for me to heal. The first few days will be very difficult, but i know it will get less and less painful as time goes on...time to move on

"Where love is concerned, too much is not even enough.” - Pierre-Augustin de Beaumarchais

Vantage Deco..

Few weeks ago, i went to Vantage gallery home situated in PJ with my mom and other 3 relatives.Vantage is one of the english style home deco...the design is extremely beautiful and classic...

hmm...

hi all...seems laike i neva keep my blog updated for quite some times...pretty busy lorh...now i'm one step away from my studen life...only 1 more examination, 1 design project presentation n a viva for my thesis...i insanely happy that i can complete all within d time frame...soon i'll b graduated as biochemical engineer...i'm looking forward....wheeeeeeeee

whoaaa....

hi all...seems like long time i never update my blog...damn busy with student life...really miss blogging...so many things to story.At the turn of the new year, I posted about my desire to a resolution for 2009...dis year gonna be my final year in UKM. As scary as this all may sound, I am really excited to finish my study after all i'd gone through, it is a blessing to know that the Lord is leading me to the next step in His plan for me..

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Here I am,living by myself,wif myself & 4 myself in my life.I'm sure it won't be for a long time,nor do I want it to be.But I am truly enjoying looking at the world through my very own independent eyes & hearing wif my own ears..million of contradictions. If u want ur life blissful, juz b urself n make other people happy with u...never argue with an idiot. They 'll drag you down to their level then beat you with experience...hahaha

>>down-to-earth yet rebellious<<

Wish list..sounds greedy..but needy

Just came across certain things that I would like to have , in case anyone want to make it for me…heee…=P

1)A shelf of Ipod..soo cool!

2)Sport car...Porsche boxster

3)Trip to Venice...with my beloved one(blushin)

4)Versace Venus Ostrich handbag...

5)Meet Angelina Jolie..she such a privilege

6)Gym membership..Celebrity fitness Club

7) Shopping without limit at eluxury.com...heee....

8)New hair-do..really need a different look

9)Farandole Bracelet..

Arrogance doesn't belong to me...

Last week was kind of a very tough moment in my life. I was trapped in so many uneasy situations. There was no way to escape. Dealing with it was all I could do.So many external things that I could not avoid to happen..it made me losing my focus..lotz of things have to be done on time...thesis..design projexx..engineering economic part..maybe it wasn't my field..maybe it wasn't me at all. well, let's see. I still have my dream though... being a single, life was kinda complicated and I thought that being 'double' would be better..this is life..full of problem. All we need in this life is strength. In all aspects of life, I got myself haunted by so many difficulties that I could not afford to handle.There was no solution. All I could do was just waiting until all the problems were solved by the rolling of time. Not that I did not want to clear away those problem out of my life but the cause was sort of an external one. It should have been easier if the problem came from myself, I just had to do something with me. But it was all external. This week things are calmer. .Not that all those problems were solved but at least, one by one, they are not as complicated as before. My head is not as full as before. I can think without having to get a headache. I can see things a little bit more clearly now.This is life. Life is up side down. Just be prepared. Both sides need strength anyway.All I know that, I have to be strong and gain all the strength on earth, grab it to my heart and let the blood spread the energy to all over my body and mind...