Pasha Ungu Feat Adelia - Penghujung Cintaku

No more and no less

It's a rainy day in Terengganu for few days and it literally affect my health condition..me currently having flu, fever and cough..when it's raining, i felt like being at home and quickly think of sleeping, therefore my body starts feeling tired..oh my..really feel uncomfortable with the runny nose..affect me emotionally..sigh~

but I love the rain!

pray tat i'll fully recover soonest..lotsa tasks waiting..really need strength to complete them all. I'm grateful enuf tat all my loves one alwiz comes across me whenever I need some care, support and guidance.

Welcome 2011..goodbye 2010

Salam all..today is d last day of 2010..few hours to go for 2011 to arrive..i wish tat 2011 'll bring a better year for me..i didn't make any new year resolutions so far..yet good to b true,i usually don’t have a proper one since i find them so difficult to keep..but for dis year and ahead, i'm thinking to have short listed of resolutions that should be easy to keep and that will go a long way towards ensuring a successful year for me, surely with God's willing..hoyeahh..i wish that my new resolutions 'll hold up longer than those of the years past..amin

Guys..i'm wishing you a very happy new year 2011 and may you find happiness and prosperity all year thru..xoxo~

Memorable moments of 2010

At the end of the year, sometimes it's good to do the recap on the most happy and memorable moments which happened in 2010..moments to be remembered and surely to be treasured:)

1)Being a postgraduate student

Been registered end of December 2009..how fast time flies..it's ald been a year..went thru some hard time indeed but i keep reminding myself that great and hard works promise good end..my decision to set daily, weekly, and monthly goals can be considered as a good idea since my research is progressing well and work out even better..happy mode:..

2)Umrah & Ziarah

My greatest trip ever..thank you Allah for granting me comfort, safe, hassle free and smooth journey..looking forward to revisit this holy place in short time frame..with God willing..amin~

3)Beijing Trip

I also much admired all the ancients of China.Overall, this is the most awesome trip ever and it's my first time there as well ;)

4)Universal Studio Singapore quick trip

Bring back home an everlasting memory..great companions, great place..most enjoyable moments..welcoming Singapore city tour for next trip..2011's schedule..whee

5)Bandung-Jakarta vacation

Revisiting Jakarta/Bandung again,again and again..this time really a cik kiah's trip..13 pax all together with the same agenda..shopping..shopping.and shopping..he6)Hari Raya Aidilfitri 2010

All family's members were here on the most joyous day..my sister's 1st raya celebration with family after 3 years away to New Zealand..everyone's happy since our family finally complete..lalalala~7)Moving into new castle;p

Thanx mom and dad for the beautiful house..the worst part was to pack n unpack the stuff..bit tiring yet fun since our new house is spacious than the old one..like..like..like!

8)Medan Trip

I wasn’t excited at all to go to Medan at first place as i prefer Bandung/Jakarta more..but it exceeded my expectations and end up i had a great trip to Medan due to the sightseeing, more relaxing and good hospitality and food:)9)Perhentian Island Escape

My second island visit after Langkawi..great memories created here..this is the point where my relationship with UMT's buddy been tighten..best beach on island..thumbs up~10)Histoire d'amour

Wohoo..this can b remarks among the best part of my life so far..sometimes it's go0d to limit ur sight rather than broaden to see who among the peeps surround us that will stay when others went off..may i have a good start and i pray that there 'll be a blossom ends for my life..cheers~

Beat of my heart

How fast time flies, in few days we will be welcoming another year..2010 seems to be a good year for me..hopefully year ahead will b good as well..i'm not yet having any ideas about my new year resolution..that's why i'm eager to find out as well..predicted that i'm not going to have long listed resolution coz i'm afraid i might not accomplish any of it..huhu..enough to have only up to five resolutions..wuhuu..sometimes, it's true that its hard to live your life when your dreams are always so much better than reality..but there’s a lesson that i learned, everybody has moments of weakness in their life but there's also a moment of greatness tagging us along..it just d matter of time frame.

The best is yet to be..:big smile~

Yesterday,i did a blog walking in order to fill my leisure..i came across one blog,sharing an entry entitled 'Doa untuk kekasih'..the contents was so0 in too deep..so i juz share wit u guys here..special credit to the owner;

Dengan nama Allah yang Pemurah dan Penyayang. Segala Puji bagi Allah Tuhan Seru Sekelian alam. Ya Allah, kurniakanlah rahmat dan sejahtera atas penghulu kami Muhammad serta keluarga dan sahabatnya

Ya Allah seandainya telah engkau catatkan..Dia milik ku..Tercipta buatku..satukan lah hatinya dengan hatiku..Titipkanlah kebahagian antara kami..agar kemesraan itu abadi..Dan Ya Allah..Ya Tuhanku yang maha pengasih..seiringkanlah kami melayari hidup ini..ketepian yang sejahtera dan abadi..

Tetapi Ya Allah seandainya telah engkau takdirkan..dia bukan milik ku..bawalah dia jauh dari pandangan ku..Luputkan lah dia dalam ingatan ku..dan peliharahlah aku dalam kekecewaan..

Serta Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku yang maha mengerti..berikanlah aku kekuatan..Melontarkan bayangan nye jauh ke dada langit hilang bersama senja nan merah..Agar ku bias bahagia..walaupun tanpa bersama dengannya..

Dan Ya Allah yang tercinta..Gantikanlah yang telah hilang ..Tumbuhkan lah kembali yang telah patah..walaupun tidak sama dengan dirinya..

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku..Pasrahkan lah aku dengan takdir mu..Sesungguhnya apa yang telah engkau takdirkan..Adalah yang terbaik buat ku..Kerana engkau maha mengetahui..Segala yang baik buat hamba mu ini..

Ya Allah cukup lah hanya engkau menjadi pemeliharaku..di dunia dan diakhirat..dengkanlah rintihan hambamu yang daif ini..jangan lah biakan aku sendirian..di dunia ini mahupun diakhirat..menjurus aku kearah kemaksiatan dan kemungkaran..Maka kurnikan lah aku seorang pasangan yang beriman..supaya aku dan dia sama2 dapat membina kesejahteraan hidup..kejalan yang engkau redhai..dan kurnikanlah aku keturunan yang soleh..

Dan Allah, limpahkanlah rahmat serta sejahtarakanlah junjungan kami Muhammad, keluarga serta sahabat-sahabat Baginda.

This was a great article..thanks author for highlighting that when it mean to be,then it'll be..no matter what..everyone desire someone who will always be there when we really need someone to lean on..so on me..it's all that i ultimately want in life..but who knows what gonna happen in the future..but i strongly believe Allah knows the what the best for me..Tawakkaltu a'la Allah~

Alhamdulilah..it has been smooth sailing til then:)

hi dear folks..
i couldn't believe it’s been nearly a month since my last post..aside from the fact that i'm prety lazy to share stories,i'm also busy completing my research work.I'm glad that i'm finally found a shot to kickstart my thesis writing..bunch of task waiting and i try my best to settle it all on time..surely i hav to spend more time teaching myself anything and everything that I could get my hands on about my research scope..exploring everythin related to that..sounds complicated but seriously it's not..hee..great time to spread my own wings..yaww..eversince in today’s world, there is no excuse not to learn..i see myself in future as one d most successful woman and that's what i'm shootin at by now..so great effort needed here.

Many many thanks to Allah SWT who give me everything i need in life and also for granting me the right pathway of life..everything went smoothly as i wish it to be


wut a sleepy head..huarghh..need to get my butt off in here..till we meet again:)

Light up the sky

hey peeps..i've been neglectful of posting here for quite sometimes..apart of that,i need to do a comeback i guess..wuhuu..lotsa things to share n update..it's been a while since my last post..i'm x yet sharing wit u guys my trip to Singapore n Indonesia(again..and againn)..n oso my Eid celebration..n many mores..promise to update soonest..

I oso would like to share my little happiness, little cute moments with my great one..soon~

my soul rejoice!

Nothing to regret..great decision i've made afterall..i do pray everythin goes well for me..song by BCL, Hanya Untukmu touches me a lot:)

Rasanya tak ingin berakhir
Saat kita rasa bahagia
Hidup penuh misteri
Kadang sulit kita jalani
Takkan bisa sendiri
Meraih mimpi tanpa cintamu

Terlalu indah untuk dibayangkan
Terlalu manis untuk di kenang
Karena engkau ku ada di sini
Kau selalu ada di hatiku dan di cintaku

Terima kasih telah memilihku
kan ku jaga cintamu selamanya
Ku ‘kan selalu jadi yang terbaik
Melantunkan melodi terindah

Hanya untukmu

The storm inside me..omg

Wut a busy week i had but i'll alwiz ensure myself to find way for blogging..hee.Day seems busy as usual, but there's always a room for me to create something fun. I just came back from KL yesterday..done for raya shopping..whee.It's ald fifteen of Ramadhan..halfway to go before all muslim will celebrating Hari Raya..how fast time flies. I alwiz wish there were no sorrow, crying or maybe pain in this world at any point in my life. I'm getting better each day..thanx Allah for giving me the strength to counter all thie shortcoming. I hate being stereotype and i know everyone has their own way of saying and doing things but as far as I've concerned, straightforward is the best way..absolutely no beating around the bush..too good to be true..lol. I believe love doesn't have to hurt and showing it and living it has another story itself..and this time i think it is worth for me to wait since there's still few commitments still tag us along and we should give ourselves some space and time to settledown..well,i think it's not an issue here..all i can do now is making the best of it. It felt good typing all that out..I feel renewed and refreshed..he.Well,busy moment ahead..actually I have so much to blog about but seriously not enough time to..though there's something worth writing..huhu.Will try to with God willing..hav a great day,peeps~

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

Somewhere..somehow..someday

When i get hurt, sometimes it helps for me to just turn back for awhile and walk away.It gives me myself a moment to regain strength and clear my mind to help myself deal with the pain.Several times I feel like running away and just escaping from everything else..but i knew, no matter what I do, life do catches up on me. I wish I could post a more cheerful snapshot but recently i've been at hectic stage of life..so sorry peeps!!. People do say, if your spouse is spending more and more time with new “friend” then there is probably more to it than mere friendship.Whatever the reasons for the friendship, it’s a big warning sign and one you should take seriously.It is not a good to love someone who belongs to someone else coz it only lead to ruin their relationship.I'm not sure about where these feelings will take me but surely i have to erase everything and take over it.I’m not going to just leave everything hanging and i know I shouldn’t be feeling this and honestly i tried to avoid it, tried to ignore it and even distanced myself. I wanna be happy for him just like any good friend should feel and wut else could i be any happier. To whom it may concern,i'm truly sory for everything..it just happen beyond my circumstances but x worry..we r just friend and will always remain as friend..nothing more than that..too good to be true.
It’s still a long road ahead and my battle of life is not yet over but I know in God’s perfect time, things will be made perfect according to His will. There are things that are simply not meant to be no matter how much we try.If a relationship is truly meant for us, love will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.Sometimes we just don’t realize that what we’re looking for is something we already have, we just couldn’t realize it and sometimes we just take for granted the people who matters to us the most..appreciate them before it’s too late..wink~

Back in action..more to come!

Alhamdulillah..we're on the fourth day of Ramadhan..how fast time flies..as for me,everything went well so far..few things to settle meantime..will undergo monthly sampling to Setiu river basin next week..yet i'm not done with my writing for research paper's publishing and so on presentation's material for the conference..oh my..October getting nearer and it scared me a lot..aiyayaaaa..pray Allah do give me strength to complete all this on time..so many commitments tag along me currently..yesterday i'm done with the flight tix booking to Indonesia..this gonna be my fourth visit to Jakarta/Bandung..getaway to Jakarta/Bandung such an annual activity for me..those places such a shopping heaven and the place where money flows like water..u'll regret much once u step in this place since u'll keep coming to this place..and this only apply to shopaholic like me..cautious needed here..whee..this time 14 other buddies would like to join me..sounds like rombongan che kiah to Indonesia..most of the che kiah's members are first timer and i really hope they will enjoy the trip and the shopping diseases will widespread them and they will keep repeating indonesia trip same like me..no harm..ahaaa..this coming trip seems to be full shopping trip and not much sightseeing but i intend to bring them visiting Taman Mini Indonesia Indah,Jakarta. We'll be covering Jakarta and Bandung's shopping places such as Factory Outlet Bandung, Pasar Baru Bandung, Paris Van Java, Alun-alun Bandung, Tanah Abang Jakarta, Mangga Dua Jakarta, Grand Indonesia Plaza and etc. There are hundred factory outlets in Bandung and the visit wouldn’t be complete if we don’t go to the Factory Outlet that they have there. If you love some branded goods like Miss Sixty, Levi's,Polo, GAP, Esprit, Guess n etc, then this is the place for you since most of those stuff are original. Last time,I bought the same clothes in Bandung that they have at the boutique here in KL but at a much cheaper price..woww..wut a great saving.Hope our 4 days 3 nights trip goes well as expected and insya-Allah our trip will be a memorable for all...will update u guys soon..grinnn~

Sunshine after the rain

I believe everything happens for a reason although i might not see it right away.No matter what i think or feel, the most important thing is i learn, accept and move forward in a way that benefits me..much better next time i don’t make someone a priority if they only make me an option. After all this while, i learn to be accepting, kind and forgiving to myself because thru it, i only able to be accepting, kind and forgiving to others.

Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak everyone:)

Ramadhan is here again.May this year be a blessed ramadhan kareem for all of us...moga kita semua mendapat keberkatan di bulan mulia ini.May Allah guide everyone to the right path and forgive us all.Once again, salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to all Muslim all over the world,happy fasting peeps...;)

..and it only happened today!

Feeling a little down today..passing by the emotional part of life..song by erra fazira realy fit me well currently..it's painful beyond belief..i know it will be better, just i don't know how to survive until then..time to move on..now i'll become a heartless person..it much better tat way,i guess~

Penaku menari mencoretkan
Sebuah puisi kelukaan
Gurindam jiwa
Cinta dan airmata
Di kamar hati ini
Masih ada sembunyi
Kenangan yang tak mampu
Ku lemparkan jauh

Penaku menari melakarkan
Gambar kesayuan masa silam
Tinta bersulam biru
Warna kerinduan
Berkaca jernih ingatanku
Biarpun dikau telah jauh
Dari pandanganku

Manisnya pertemuan
Pahitnya perpisahan
Segala kini tidak dapat
Untukku bahasakan
Semua kini kaku
Tiada lagu merdu
Setiap madah baris kata
Bukannya lagi buatmu

Kini berteman sepi
Kini aku sendiri
Suka dan duka
Dalam meniti gelombang
Kembara panjang

Jauh melangkah pergi
Tidak menoleh lagi
Kenangan silamku
Tinggal tertulis kini
Dalam sebuah puisi

Penaku menari membariskan
Puisi sebuah pengalaman
Gurindam jiwa cinta dan airmata
Di kamar sepi ini
Titisan membasahi
Dan aku tidak tahu
Pada siapakah untukku luah rasa

My one last hope

really in kuciwa mode..nothin much i can do right now..listen repeatedly to the song by english boy band,Trademark..the tears keep coming down and i juz can't make it stop..tissue pleaseee:(

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do


That's must be something love can do..i wish~

I'll fly away and leave all this to yesterday

The moon of my night has been stolen and i'm kinda drifting away at this moment..the passing day seems to be pretty miserable and this miserableness really kill me inside out..it's really not easy to be me.Currently i'm facing a conflict of life which hurting me emotionally and break me into pieces..it's just too personal to share with..i did regret most and remark it as the biggest mistake in my life..stupid me..should give a slap to myself.I figured out that life would be exactly what i made it to be and i was prepared to make it be whatever i wanted.Just there's a shortcoming where i had no idea what i wanted it to be..everything was all confused..how dramatic my life had been and i really hate it..sounds like i have to reboot myself and give myself time and space to fix all this..damn pathetic!

Even though it has been a rough moment, there is a part of me that moving ahead into the new chapter of life and leaving all yesterday's matter behind.I hope that the coming days will bring with it d great things in life.May Allah give me strength to walk thru my hard time..i'm full of confidence that Allah's hands will always be extended to me and guide me to the right path..Allah SWT the merciful~

Hello Medan 2010

Last weekend, my family and i were on vacation to Medan which remark as capital of North Sumatra Indonesia. This trip has been planned last minutes one and as for Medan, since Airasia Low cost Airlines flies there everyday and it only takes about an hour to reach there from LCCT, so there's not a big deal i guess. We took off from LCCT at 7.45 am and arrived Polonia International Airport Medan about 7.35 am local time. Medan is the third largest city in Indonesia after Jakarta and Surabaya. We stay in Tiara Hotel Medan. Even this four stars hotel a bit pricey but it considered as worth staying hotel since it located in Medan’s city center, and give convenience and ideal for leisure to everyone.

During our stay in Medan, most all of the eat-time,we had our meals at Rumah Makan Garuda and Restoran Simpang Tiga. This restaurant served us nasi padang and we really enjoyed it.The place which brought damage to my pockets was Pasar Ikan, but not that badly koyak compared to my previous visit to Tanah Abang,Jakarta and Pasar Baru,Bandung. Those two places really made me loose my breath several times..hee. Pasar Ikan is well known with the array of kain batik jawa, hand woven telekung or mukena and batik blouses. This place is quite crowded and there's so many rows of shops selling all kinds of stuffs. I also went to Sun Plaza, one of the shopping mall in Medan.

A quite short journey, 3 days 2 nights stay was yet exciting and my Medan vacation wasn't complete since i don't have chance to visit Lake Toba, Samosir Island and Berastagi this time..it's all about time constraint..so there will be second chapter of Hello Medan..just dun know the exact date yet..grinn~

A time,a place and a reason

Hey peeps..as everyone concerned,Ramadhan is coming less than 15 days..how fast time flies and i still can feel the immense of previous Ramadhan..regarding my life,everything absolutely good and work according to the flow..so far,my research study progress seems fine and can be considered at the right miles where it supposed to be..nothing much to update since i'm having quite same schedules each day..sounds bored aitt but frankly to say i had so much fun being a student..still. That's really me..the greatez part being a student is i'm not attach to working hours 8am to 5pm whereby i hate tat part most..those hectic situation really can kill me instantly..really really do..sometimes i need a chilling especially when me myself encounter tense and stress and i think the best way for me to have a breathtaking is having a vacation..every time i'm having a getaway,it's kinda relaxing moment ever..time to forget all the workload for just a short period of time and to do the brainstorm..that's really good refreshment for me so far..sort of.Well,there's 3 more vacations to go this year..that's the planned one..hopefully there's no add on anymore..hee. I'll having family getaway to Medan this coming Thursday and it juz a short visit. Singapore with my besties will be this coming October while rombongan cik kiah to Jakarta and Bandung will be on 12th to 15th of November..that's a great satisfaction for me and also denote as a reward to myself after working so hard on my research work. Nothing to loose if you really enjoy every second of it and surely having a getaway is great if only u have sufficient money inside ur pockets...grinn. A visit to Paris is my next shooting star..hoyehhhh~

Plenty princes keep coming my way but sad to say the recommended one is a clingy typo.I'll feel good if only i have a heart of stone..no compromise, no contradict and no offense..lol~

It's 3 am and i couldn't sleep

Hi my Mr Diary so called..it's been quite sometimes since my last blogging..it's now almost 3am and i'm here..still awake.It was awkward when i don't have much thing to say..kinda lost myself in this middle of the night. I'm so0 lovestruck but i did something stupid for hurting someone special in my life. I noticed love comes when it supposed to come, no need to search for it, it came its own way. I clearly know what i want from a relationship and if a guy can't give me that,then i don't bother. Well this time, i may have actually found it. He's the most incredible, loving person that i've ever met in my life. This is my confession and this is really my redemption. I’d never been attracted to someone else in the way i was attracted to him and now my world is falling apart. I’ve always been able to control everything except for my heart. I think i'm falling in love with him and it feels good. This really who i am now and i would like it to be this way. I've never been so sure of anything. But today seems a gloomy day and i hate for what i'm doing to him..nothing much i can say right now but he's really the one who touch me deep inside..i felt sorry to him since i can never be the girl who's right for him and i'm not perfect and i never will be.I've hurt myself by hurting him and i wish i could find one best word to say and fix everything. I know he might not want me back for all the terrible things i've done. I'm so selfish since i never care about anyone except for myself. This time d pain let me know that i'm capable of feeling and now I learn to appreciate everything, most importantly i will appreciate him.I dream he'll be my shot at happiness and i know there must something love can do.I believe everything gonna be alright one day and love will find the way since everything comes naturally at first place..i wish~