I'm getting better each day

Hey people..it's already February..how fast the time flies..me myself pretty busy lately..spending most of my time in the lab,running the test for water samples..keep learning, exploring and figuring..it's all for the sake of my future..my current goal to be accomplished is become DR Izyan in three years time..pray for me..hee..many thanx to my buddies,yati and shida for lending their hand to me..i'm more adaptable to the new environment now..no harm..wut a good sign.

My life is much much better now on..my decision to be out of his life for good is considerably the best one..sometimes it's good to be short and to the point. I used to be awful, but i keep trying to point out a few positive things to make me myself feel better. I'm not the person who able to hold on a little longer by being more accommodating or by compromising because my thought is that the core of a happy relationship which is not there normally wouldn't last.

Now on,what's the best thing to do is figure out what i want in a guy then go out and look for guys with those qualities or at least someone me myself compatible with..stop settling please. So its better to be selective and know what i want and what my goals are. Not a problem yet I know but it gets more complicated than that..hee.

The best way to learn about anyone before a relationship, is to be friends with them. It's a must before i start to commit. I longed for someone who is a husband-material and doesn't only want a physical contact with me. As long as i don't commit to anyone, it's better keep my feelings locked inside because I'm honestly afraid of getting hurt. And even then, it's the fact that a person named man is known to use women..so true ait??Gosh...am i too overanalyze...hmm

Now, it's the right time for me to sit down, clear my head and think with my brain, not with my feelings..stay single until i able to figure out who i like the most..oh my..this all is really typical.

Sometimes we are our own best therapists!!

Already gone

I dun know why but lately i'm really in this song, ALREADY GONE by Kelly Clarkson.I can feel like part of its lyrics really tells what i'm going through now.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Welcome 2010,goodbye 2009

Hey all...wish ya a very Happy New Year 2010. It's been way too long since my last post. I was almost afraid if I went any longer I might forget how to blogging..hee. Today we are leaving of 2009..a year that have passed so quick.It’s now the time to reflect again about the usual stuff and set up a new resolution.I think i should always learn from the past, so that i can focus on what i myself really want to do in the future. In due time, i will revert back to how i were previously and feel like failures. Not to minimize the importance and value of trying to be the best that i can, but this year will give me much challenge to a new resolution..i'll try to look at all situations through the lens of love.

I am very happy to report that I am now a postgraduate student and looking forward to have my master degree.

Hope 2010 will be an amazing year for me.:pray:.

Unbreak my heart

I promised that I will write regularly..hehe..da bersawang da blog ku..lack of time to update mine..hmm...not really about the time constraint,it's really all about mood of writing...ilham kekadang x muncul,..heee. It’s funny how life does loop the loops, twists and dips. But no matter how the ride throws me I always move forward..day seems like to be a long period to go through..i dun know where to start but what's the most is my heart already broken into two..i don't want to point to someone that used to be my other half but what i am today is because of him.

It was dramatic when i just realized that he wasn't the right one for me. I've thought about this..this is what life looks like..now me myself will work hard to the wounds and scars that has left on my heart. The most important thing that I have learned is that I can't change other people, but I can change myself..I know the longer the relationship lasted, the longer it will take for me to heal. The first few days will be very difficult, but i know it will get less and less painful as time goes on...time to move on

"Where love is concerned, too much is not even enough.” - Pierre-Augustin de Beaumarchais

Chaotic mind..sighhh~

hi all...today i'm not deeply in a good mood..emotional breakdown maybe..huh..i keep listening to sentimental music..every music of love tat i listen to telling stories about the pain and sorrow of unfulfilled love..does love have to hurt??I keep questioning myself...love and passion unlock so many feelings that it's hard to describe them all..it only can be feel deep inside our heart..love is not supposed to hurt..love is wonderful and it should be that way..sighh~

UK and Dubai trip 2009~part 3

UK and Dubai trip 2009~part 2

UK and Dubai trip 2009~part 1

I'm lucky enough to travel quite a lot this year.In February - travel to Indonesia with my besties, early July- travel alone to New Zealand and early November - travel to United Kingdom and Dubai with my beloved parents. My parents were going to my uncle's convocation in Glasgow, then i were tagged along. We took Emirates airlines since my uncle work with Emirates so we able to get special price for the ticket..not really a big cut but it much more cheaper than flying with MAS. Since we fly with Emirates so we were going to Dubai for transit.
We left Dubai for Glasgow at 7.25 am Monday and got there at 11 am Glasgow time. My uncle fetch us and drop us at the hotel somewhere in Argile Street. The hotel was named Alexander Thompson Hotel.











We had a great time. It was really nice to get out of the city to see some of the Scottish countryside.

I really need a serious diet..=(

OMG...i was damnly shocked when i got up the weight scale...i put on some weight..hmm..i dun think it's quite a small number..4 kgs since hari raya celebration...this is all due to heavy food that i took during hari raya...I personally have a huge appetite..there's so much open house to attend...most every house serve lemang,ketupat,sate,nasi dagang and others..and also kuih raya..there were countless type of kuih raya that i can see during hari raya..this all food that i'm craving for..fuhh..i'm pretty sure that i already can't fit my jeans..and also some of my dress..i can feel fats deposited all over my body...i make up my mind to start dieting...control all the foods flow in..do some exercise to burn down the calories..to lose weight,i have to plan out healthy weight loss diets in such a manner that the energy intake from food must be less than the energy output from food.Besides,i also have try to center around the habit of eating healthy foods that'll let me enjoy nutrients as well as cause to lose weight and stay lean...so,my diet is on the go...until i reach back previous weight...yeeha

Master degree,,,is it a right choice??

Fuhh...life is not that easy as ABC or 123..wuteva it is life must go on..after completing my degree,wut's up next..either working or continue my study to the next level..after keep thinking for quite some time,i come to final decision..master's degree is the next logical step to take...right time to start..grinn:.