Jazul's sister wed

Hi all..it's been quite sometimes since my last post..few days ago,I've been invited to my colleague's sister's big day somewhere in Wakaf Tengah..being there with other friends of mine..it's been a busy weekend..on my way to d ceremony,there's also few road accidents here and there..fuhh..extra careful on the road babe.Here some pix to share with..he

I had a good time catching up with friends..xoxo

Deepest congratulations to the bride and her lucky hubby.What a festive day it was!

Lambaian Kaabah

Salam all..i'm counting down the days until my first step to Baitullah..thanx Allah for granted me a chance to perform umrah & ziarah to His holy house in Makkah..this is my first time being there and frankly speaking, various kinds of feelings are in me right now..nervous,excited,takut but mean time me myself can't wait for that day.My two weeks trip to Makkah and Madinah with my whole family members expected to be most meaningful moments for us. It's just incredible feeling to be there and I do pray my coming trip to Makkah and Madinah gonna be the trip which full of blissful, blessed and enjoyable events.Hopefully i'll able to face all the challenges, yes, and gain much experience over there..semoga semuanya dipermudahkan..i'll update my story once i come back from my umrah then..and also with the pictures of course..grinnn~

Aku yang hampa

Well, it's been quite some times since my previous post..kemalasan yang melanda ditambah dengan jiwa kacau..huhu.Needless to say,I'd fall for wrong person..again i felt so left out and broken..this uneasy feelings could last a while until i able to find my strength back. Oh my god, this is totally freaking me out..i nearly think he's the right one for me..everything seems beautiful when I'm with him but now only i realized i gotta myself wrong. .as for me,i attracted to him due to his character..he's d coolest guy on earth..i adore him and get knowing him was not a mistake but fall for him too sudden considered d biggest mistake ever..i know he's not tat ready to give any commitment and i also dun have any power to force him to do so..seriously i never felt any kecewa feeling worst than this..i like him and he did say he likes me too and ald consider me as his special one..but we have different thought..i don't have any heart to have any cintan-cintun so called relationship coz i'm too tired for tat and this time i'm looking for the confirm one..looking for my other half or 'husband' to make it short..frankly speaking,i'm so0 into him but i know there's a great man out there who ald made up for me..who tend to share life with me..for what i know,on our way to meet MR Right,there's is MR Wrong..wut can i say now..lesson's learned..get knowing someone deeply then only talk bout love..oh my..when i have a heavy heart,i tend to let music speaks for me..the only song suits me now on is 'Patah Hati' by Ari Lasso..

Thank you

I know i'm not tat good at writing..my blog kinda boring aitt...but i promise to improve it and sounds like i have to keep writing regularly..ouchh..it's all bout time constraint..lack of time to update my blog..tonnes of works waiting for me..huu..fieldwork n labwork in a row..huishh..disregard the thesis's write-up..aiyoo..it's not easy to be an excellent person in life..it's all depends on how good u r in time management..i'm not a well-scheduled type of person..i admit that my life kinda messy a bit but fortunately still under control..many thanx to all peeps around me,for lending their hand to me whenever i need it..really appreciate it mostt..without them,i dun think i can handle it by myself..i hereby acknowledge all the persons who alwiz there with me even in my hard time..luv u all~

Melengkap segala kekurangan

It such a hectic moment for me lately..lotsa problems arised..i alwiz pray me myself will be much stronger each time i felt down and mess..my study progress was ok but it's juz a problem with me myself.I feel so torn and it's not easy to cope when it comes to heart matter..since my previous hard time in life or breakup time so called,i gain all my strength back to overcome my emotional breakdown. Few great men came across me but i don't think i already found my MR Right. They are all nice persons but seems like I'm not their good match..so i made out my decision to sit down n relax. It's time to list down what i really want in my partner or my other half to be.It's not good to be too rush in making decision coz i know,end up i'm the one who'll be left heartbroken. I still can feel the pain in me due to my previous breakup..hard to express n so to explain..it's not easy to find someone who really understand me..i'm not tat complicated by the way..juz an easy-going type whom lookin for a man with charisma typo.What can i figure out bout myself is i'm a giver type and that's why i'm looking for a man with a giver sense..i

i know it should be a give and take in a relationship..everyone is a taker but not all is a giver..i dun want me myself feel insecure with my own partner and since i have the power to choose,so i'll ensure me myself hunting for a great man with those criteria...go go..keep hunting and hunting...yeahhh

I'm getting better each day

Hey people..it's already February..how fast the time flies..me myself pretty busy lately..spending most of my time in the lab,running the test for water samples..keep learning, exploring and figuring..it's all for the sake of my future..my current goal to be accomplished is become DR Izyan in three years time..pray for me..hee..many thanx to my buddies,yati and shida for lending their hand to me..i'm more adaptable to the new environment now..no harm..wut a good sign.

My life is much much better now on..my decision to be out of his life for good is considerably the best one..sometimes it's good to be short and to the point. I used to be awful, but i keep trying to point out a few positive things to make me myself feel better. I'm not the person who able to hold on a little longer by being more accommodating or by compromising because my thought is that the core of a happy relationship which is not there normally wouldn't last.

Now on,what's the best thing to do is figure out what i want in a guy then go out and look for guys with those qualities or at least someone me myself compatible with..stop settling please. So its better to be selective and know what i want and what my goals are. Not a problem yet I know but it gets more complicated than that..hee.

The best way to learn about anyone before a relationship, is to be friends with them. It's a must before i start to commit. I longed for someone who is a husband-material and doesn't only want a physical contact with me. As long as i don't commit to anyone, it's better keep my feelings locked inside because I'm honestly afraid of getting hurt. And even then, it's the fact that a person named man is known to use women..so true ait??Gosh...am i too overanalyze...hmm

Now, it's the right time for me to sit down, clear my head and think with my brain, not with my feelings..stay single until i able to figure out who i like the most..oh my..this all is really typical.

Sometimes we are our own best therapists!!

Already gone

I dun know why but lately i'm really in this song, ALREADY GONE by Kelly Clarkson.I can feel like part of its lyrics really tells what i'm going through now.

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you, now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so, I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Already gone, already gone, already gone
Already gone, already gone, already gone, yeah

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road someone's gotta go
And I want you to know you couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on so I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right when you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on so I'm already gone

Welcome 2010,goodbye 2009

Hey all...wish ya a very Happy New Year 2010. It's been way too long since my last post. I was almost afraid if I went any longer I might forget how to blogging..hee. Today we are leaving of 2009..a year that have passed so quick.It’s now the time to reflect again about the usual stuff and set up a new resolution.I think i should always learn from the past, so that i can focus on what i myself really want to do in the future. In due time, i will revert back to how i were previously and feel like failures. Not to minimize the importance and value of trying to be the best that i can, but this year will give me much challenge to a new resolution..i'll try to look at all situations through the lens of love.

I am very happy to report that I am now a postgraduate student and looking forward to have my master degree.

Hope 2010 will be an amazing year for me.:pray:.

Unbreak my heart

I promised that I will write regularly..hehe..da bersawang da blog ku..lack of time to update mine..hmm...not really about the time constraint,it's really all about mood of writing...ilham kekadang x muncul,..heee. It’s funny how life does loop the loops, twists and dips. But no matter how the ride throws me I always move forward..day seems like to be a long period to go through..i dun know where to start but what's the most is my heart already broken into two..i don't want to point to someone that used to be my other half but what i am today is because of him.

It was dramatic when i just realized that he wasn't the right one for me. I've thought about this..this is what life looks like..now me myself will work hard to the wounds and scars that has left on my heart. The most important thing that I have learned is that I can't change other people, but I can change myself..I know the longer the relationship lasted, the longer it will take for me to heal. The first few days will be very difficult, but i know it will get less and less painful as time goes on...time to move on

"Where love is concerned, too much is not even enough.” - Pierre-Augustin de Beaumarchais

Chaotic mind..sighhh~

hi all...today i'm not deeply in a good mood..emotional breakdown maybe..huh..i keep listening to sentimental music..every music of love tat i listen to telling stories about the pain and sorrow of unfulfilled love..does love have to hurt??I keep questioning myself...love and passion unlock so many feelings that it's hard to describe them all..it only can be feel deep inside our heart..love is not supposed to hurt..love is wonderful and it should be that way..sighh~