A time,a place and a reason

Hey peeps..as everyone concerned,Ramadhan is coming less than 15 days..how fast time flies and i still can feel the immense of previous Ramadhan..regarding my life,everything absolutely good and work according to the flow..so far,my research study progress seems fine and can be considered at the right miles where it supposed to be..nothing much to update since i'm having quite same schedules each day..sounds bored aitt but frankly to say i had so much fun being a student..still. That's really me..the greatez part being a student is i'm not attach to working hours 8am to 5pm whereby i hate tat part most..those hectic situation really can kill me instantly..really really do..sometimes i need a chilling especially when me myself encounter tense and stress and i think the best way for me to have a breathtaking is having a vacation..every time i'm having a getaway,it's kinda relaxing moment ever..time to forget all the workload for just a short period of time and to do the brainstorm..that's really good refreshment for me so far..sort of.Well,there's 3 more vacations to go this year..that's the planned one..hopefully there's no add on anymore..hee. I'll having family getaway to Medan this coming Thursday and it juz a short visit. Singapore with my besties will be this coming October while rombongan cik kiah to Jakarta and Bandung will be on 12th to 15th of November..that's a great satisfaction for me and also denote as a reward to myself after working so hard on my research work. Nothing to loose if you really enjoy every second of it and surely having a getaway is great if only u have sufficient money inside ur pockets...grinn. A visit to Paris is my next shooting star..hoyehhhh~

Plenty princes keep coming my way but sad to say the recommended one is a clingy typo.I'll feel good if only i have a heart of stone..no compromise, no contradict and no offense..lol~

It's 3 am and i couldn't sleep

Hi my Mr Diary so called..it's been quite sometimes since my last blogging..it's now almost 3am and i'm here..still awake.It was awkward when i don't have much thing to say..kinda lost myself in this middle of the night. I'm so0 lovestruck but i did something stupid for hurting someone special in my life. I noticed love comes when it supposed to come, no need to search for it, it came its own way. I clearly know what i want from a relationship and if a guy can't give me that,then i don't bother. Well this time, i may have actually found it. He's the most incredible, loving person that i've ever met in my life. This is my confession and this is really my redemption. I’d never been attracted to someone else in the way i was attracted to him and now my world is falling apart. I’ve always been able to control everything except for my heart. I think i'm falling in love with him and it feels good. This really who i am now and i would like it to be this way. I've never been so sure of anything. But today seems a gloomy day and i hate for what i'm doing to him..nothing much i can say right now but he's really the one who touch me deep inside..i felt sorry to him since i can never be the girl who's right for him and i'm not perfect and i never will be.I've hurt myself by hurting him and i wish i could find one best word to say and fix everything. I know he might not want me back for all the terrible things i've done. I'm so selfish since i never care about anyone except for myself. This time d pain let me know that i'm capable of feeling and now I learn to appreciate everything, most importantly i will appreciate him.I dream he'll be my shot at happiness and i know there must something love can do.I believe everything gonna be alright one day and love will find the way since everything comes naturally at first place..i wish~

Perhentian Island Vax

What a wonderful escape to Perhentian Island i had last weekend..It only took 1 hour drive to Kuala Besut Jetty and about 30 minutes boat ride to Perhentian Island. This island is divided into two, which are Perhentian kecil and Perhentian besar and we choose Perhentian besar. I took a ride on a speed boat from the Kuala Besut mainland to Perhentian Besar island. Upon arrival, i'm a bit speechless, no words could be comparing for the beauty of it. Awesome scenary and mesmerizing view of the island really catch my eyes..Allah the Almighty!

I stay at Everfresh Chalet which the place have very basic facilities, but kinda clean and comfort. Beaches around the island are awesome and easily accessible by walk and this was truely Island stay..awesome!!There is plenty to do on the island such as beach volleyball, kayaking, snorkeling and etc. The island was quite stunning though and i had so much fun with snorkelling activity.Kinda greatest memory ever and surely with great person of course..wink~

I had so much fun during my 3 days 2 nights stay over there. It turned out to be a wonderfully relaxing trip and I am so glad i did it. I'm proud to say that I was able to overcome my fear and be in the ocean and it was the first time for me to go snorkeling. The view of the corals underwater was breathtaking and it was an amazing experience. The island is really perfect getaway to escape for a weekend and relax on the beach away from all headaches stuff of every day life. Perhentian Island is indeed a nice place to go and worth-spend vacation and i'm planning to have my second vacation to this island..too sudden right??Lol~

Umrah & Ziarah 2010

Alhamdulillah..syukur kepada Allah S.W.T dengan izinnya aku selamat kembali ke tanah air dari menunaikan umrah.It was my first time being there and frankly speaking i ald fell in luv with the places. .Makkah Al-Mukaramah and Madinah Al-Munawarah.Looking forward to be there again andai diizinkan Allah S.W.T..x tergambar oleh kata-kata how it feel and i felt very lucky to be among tetamu Allah dis time.

I've been there with my family members last 2 weeks.I took direct flight to Jeddah and surely Malaysian Hospitality was my great choice.Eventhoungh the flight delayed for 2 hours,but i retain all the semangat menuju Baitullah. Anggap semuanya ujian Allah and i keep berdoa supaya semuanya dipermudahkan.

We arrived in Jeddah quite late, close to midnight. We then took a bus to Madinah Madinah is about a 5 hour ride by bus. Upon arrival and checking-in at Fayroz Al-Shatta Hotel in Madinah,it's ald fajr..so we had our subuh prayer at d hotel and had our breakfast. Al-Shatta hotel remark as persinggahan jemaah Malaysia and d hotel pretty close to Nabawi mosque..about 50 meter walking distance. After lunch and prayers, we went on our first ziarah to Nabawi mosque by our respective muttawifs, Ustaz Shukri.

My first step into Nabawi mosque really impressed me out..all d senibina kinda things indeed unique and it really melambangkan kehebatan agama islam itu sendiri. All muslims around d world dtg ke masjid ini dgn satu tujuan yang sama,menziarahi makam Rasul kekasih Allah. Perasaan sayu dtg menyelubungi diri..terasa amat dkt dgn Ya Muhammad Ya Rasulullah..begitu besar pengorbanan Baginda dlm menegakkan syiar islam and i felt lucky and sangat2 bersyukur kerana dilahirkan dalam Islam.

The next day,we did ziarah to Quba mosque and Qiblatain mosque and also not forgettin Jabal Uhud. Quba Mosque is d first mosque ever to be built in Saudi Arabia. It was built when Prophet Muhammad first migrated to Madinah from Makkah while Qiblatain is the with the two qiblahs. This is the mosque in which while performing a four rakaah prayer, Prophet Muhammad performed the first two rakaah facing Baitul Maqdis (Jerusalem) after which he received a decree from Allah to do an 180-degree turn to face Kaabah in Makkah. The remainder two of the four-rakaah prayer was performed facing Kaaba and since then the mosque got its name.

After 3 days in Madinah,we heading towards Makkah Al-Mukarramah to perform Umrah. It was mid night when we arrived in Makkah after traveling almost 5 hours on the bus from Madinah. The first obvious concern after we arrived in Makkah was to complete our umrah. We had earlier done our miqat at Bir Ali, a mosque one would stop for solat and niat umrah before proceeding towards Makkah to perform the umrah. My first step in to Al-Haram kinda memorable. We proceeded to perform our tawaf. The seven rounds were completed pretty fast as there were not so many people since it was late night. Immediately after the sunat tawaf prayer, we proceeded towards Safa to start Saie We had to walk from Safa towards Marwa and vice versa, completing seven laps. I found this even tougher than the tawaf. It was almost Fajr when we completed our saie. We did the tahalul, and we're free of all the pantang larang in ihram.

The next day,we performed visit to historical places in Makkah. Our first stop was Jabal Thur. In this mountain, there is a cave in which Prophet Muhammad and Abu Bakr As-Sidiq took refuge from the idol-worshiping Arabs who were desperately wanting to kill them. After escaping from the enemy, Prophet Muhammad PBUH and Abu Bakr migrated to Madinah. Our next stop was Jabal Rahmah. This a hill where Adam & Eve first landed on earth after they were banished from paradise. Nothing to see here except one tugu as a remark this is d place where Adam and Eve met.

The next day we went to Haramain museum featuring exhibits from the two Haram lands and mainly focusing on the two holiest mosques, Masjidil Haram in Makkah and Masjidil Nabawi in Madinah. Before heading off to the Meeqat place, that was Hudaibiyah,we stopped by a camel farm.

I spent bout 6 days in Makkah and alhmdulliah i myself successfully able to perform umrah for 5 times. Before taking off to Malaysia, we stopped for prayers at this beautiful mosque which is called "The Floating Mosque" as it was built just beside the Red Sea with a portion of it on stilts on the water.
After that we proceeded on to Jeddah International Airport for our flight back to KL. This was a really awesome trip and i sweetez moment ever in my life. I pray that Allah grants me longevity as I sincerely hope that this will not be my last visit to the holy lands of Makkah and Madinah..God willing:)

Jazul's sister wed

Hi all..it's been quite sometimes since my last post..few days ago,I've been invited to my colleague's sister's big day somewhere in Wakaf Tengah..being there with other friends of mine..it's been a busy weekend..on my way to d ceremony,there's also few road accidents here and there..fuhh..extra careful on the road babe.Here some pix to share with..he

I had a good time catching up with friends..xoxo

Deepest congratulations to the bride and her lucky hubby.What a festive day it was!

Lambaian Kaabah

Salam all..i'm counting down the days until my first step to Baitullah..thanx Allah for granted me a chance to perform umrah & ziarah to His holy house in Makkah..this is my first time being there and frankly speaking, various kinds of feelings are in me right now..nervous,excited,takut but mean time me myself can't wait for that day.My two weeks trip to Makkah and Madinah with my whole family members expected to be most meaningful moments for us. It's just incredible feeling to be there and I do pray my coming trip to Makkah and Madinah gonna be the trip which full of blissful, blessed and enjoyable events.Hopefully i'll able to face all the challenges, yes, and gain much experience over there..semoga semuanya dipermudahkan..i'll update my story once i come back from my umrah then..and also with the pictures of course..grinnn~

Aku yang hampa

Well, it's been quite some times since my previous post..kemalasan yang melanda ditambah dengan jiwa kacau..huhu.Needless to say,I'd fall for wrong person..again i felt so left out and broken..this uneasy feelings could last a while until i able to find my strength back. Oh my god, this is totally freaking me out..i nearly think he's the right one for me..everything seems beautiful when I'm with him but now only i realized i gotta myself wrong. .as for me,i attracted to him due to his character..he's d coolest guy on earth..i adore him and get knowing him was not a mistake but fall for him too sudden considered d biggest mistake ever..i know he's not tat ready to give any commitment and i also dun have any power to force him to do so..seriously i never felt any kecewa feeling worst than this..i like him and he did say he likes me too and ald consider me as his special one..but we have different thought..i don't have any heart to have any cintan-cintun so called relationship coz i'm too tired for tat and this time i'm looking for the confirm one..looking for my other half or 'husband' to make it short..frankly speaking,i'm so0 into him but i know there's a great man out there who ald made up for me..who tend to share life with me..for what i know,on our way to meet MR Right,there's is MR Wrong..wut can i say now..lesson's learned..get knowing someone deeply then only talk bout love..oh my..when i have a heavy heart,i tend to let music speaks for me..the only song suits me now on is 'Patah Hati' by Ari Lasso..

Thank you

I know i'm not tat good at writing..my blog kinda boring aitt...but i promise to improve it and sounds like i have to keep writing regularly..ouchh..it's all bout time constraint..lack of time to update my blog..tonnes of works waiting for me..huu..fieldwork n labwork in a row..huishh..disregard the thesis's write-up..aiyoo..it's not easy to be an excellent person in life..it's all depends on how good u r in time management..i'm not a well-scheduled type of person..i admit that my life kinda messy a bit but fortunately still under control..many thanx to all peeps around me,for lending their hand to me whenever i need it..really appreciate it mostt..without them,i dun think i can handle it by myself..i hereby acknowledge all the persons who alwiz there with me even in my hard time..luv u all~

Melengkap segala kekurangan

It such a hectic moment for me lately..lotsa problems arised..i alwiz pray me myself will be much stronger each time i felt down and mess..my study progress was ok but it's juz a problem with me myself.I feel so torn and it's not easy to cope when it comes to heart matter..since my previous hard time in life or breakup time so called,i gain all my strength back to overcome my emotional breakdown. Few great men came across me but i don't think i already found my MR Right. They are all nice persons but seems like I'm not their good match..so i made out my decision to sit down n relax. It's time to list down what i really want in my partner or my other half to be.It's not good to be too rush in making decision coz i know,end up i'm the one who'll be left heartbroken. I still can feel the pain in me due to my previous breakup..hard to express n so to explain..it's not easy to find someone who really understand me..i'm not tat complicated by the way..juz an easy-going type whom lookin for a man with charisma typo.What can i figure out bout myself is i'm a giver type and that's why i'm looking for a man with a giver sense..i

i know it should be a give and take in a relationship..everyone is a taker but not all is a giver..i dun want me myself feel insecure with my own partner and since i have the power to choose,so i'll ensure me myself hunting for a great man with those criteria...go go..keep hunting and hunting...yeahhh

I'm getting better each day

Hey people..it's already February..how fast the time flies..me myself pretty busy lately..spending most of my time in the lab,running the test for water samples..keep learning, exploring and figuring..it's all for the sake of my future..my current goal to be accomplished is become DR Izyan in three years time..pray for me..hee..many thanx to my buddies,yati and shida for lending their hand to me..i'm more adaptable to the new environment now..no harm..wut a good sign.

My life is much much better now on..my decision to be out of his life for good is considerably the best one..sometimes it's good to be short and to the point. I used to be awful, but i keep trying to point out a few positive things to make me myself feel better. I'm not the person who able to hold on a little longer by being more accommodating or by compromising because my thought is that the core of a happy relationship which is not there normally wouldn't last.

Now on,what's the best thing to do is figure out what i want in a guy then go out and look for guys with those qualities or at least someone me myself compatible with..stop settling please. So its better to be selective and know what i want and what my goals are. Not a problem yet I know but it gets more complicated than that..hee.

The best way to learn about anyone before a relationship, is to be friends with them. It's a must before i start to commit. I longed for someone who is a husband-material and doesn't only want a physical contact with me. As long as i don't commit to anyone, it's better keep my feelings locked inside because I'm honestly afraid of getting hurt. And even then, it's the fact that a person named man is known to use women..so true ait??Gosh...am i too overanalyze...hmm

Now, it's the right time for me to sit down, clear my head and think with my brain, not with my feelings..stay single until i able to figure out who i like the most..oh my..this all is really typical.

Sometimes we are our own best therapists!!