The storm inside me..omg

Wut a busy week i had but i'll alwiz ensure myself to find way for blogging..hee.Day seems busy as usual, but there's always a room for me to create something fun. I just came back from KL yesterday..done for raya shopping..whee.It's ald fifteen of Ramadhan..halfway to go before all muslim will celebrating Hari Raya..how fast time flies. I alwiz wish there were no sorrow, crying or maybe pain in this world at any point in my life. I'm getting better each day..thanx Allah for giving me the strength to counter all thie shortcoming. I hate being stereotype and i know everyone has their own way of saying and doing things but as far as I've concerned, straightforward is the best way..absolutely no beating around the bush..too good to be true..lol. I believe love doesn't have to hurt and showing it and living it has another story itself..and this time i think it is worth for me to wait since there's still few commitments still tag us along and we should give ourselves some space and time to settledown..well,i think it's not an issue here..all i can do now is making the best of it. It felt good typing all that out..I feel renewed and refreshed..he.Well,busy moment ahead..actually I have so much to blog about but seriously not enough time to..though there's something worth writing..huhu.Will try to with God willing..hav a great day,peeps~

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

Somewhere..somehow..someday

When i get hurt, sometimes it helps for me to just turn back for awhile and walk away.It gives me myself a moment to regain strength and clear my mind to help myself deal with the pain.Several times I feel like running away and just escaping from everything else..but i knew, no matter what I do, life do catches up on me. I wish I could post a more cheerful snapshot but recently i've been at hectic stage of life..so sorry peeps!!. People do say, if your spouse is spending more and more time with new “friend” then there is probably more to it than mere friendship.Whatever the reasons for the friendship, it’s a big warning sign and one you should take seriously.It is not a good to love someone who belongs to someone else coz it only lead to ruin their relationship.I'm not sure about where these feelings will take me but surely i have to erase everything and take over it.I’m not going to just leave everything hanging and i know I shouldn’t be feeling this and honestly i tried to avoid it, tried to ignore it and even distanced myself. I wanna be happy for him just like any good friend should feel and wut else could i be any happier. To whom it may concern,i'm truly sory for everything..it just happen beyond my circumstances but x worry..we r just friend and will always remain as friend..nothing more than that..too good to be true.
It’s still a long road ahead and my battle of life is not yet over but I know in God’s perfect time, things will be made perfect according to His will. There are things that are simply not meant to be no matter how much we try.If a relationship is truly meant for us, love will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.Sometimes we just don’t realize that what we’re looking for is something we already have, we just couldn’t realize it and sometimes we just take for granted the people who matters to us the most..appreciate them before it’s too late..wink~

Back in action..more to come!

Alhamdulillah..we're on the fourth day of Ramadhan..how fast time flies..as for me,everything went well so far..few things to settle meantime..will undergo monthly sampling to Setiu river basin next week..yet i'm not done with my writing for research paper's publishing and so on presentation's material for the conference..oh my..October getting nearer and it scared me a lot..aiyayaaaa..pray Allah do give me strength to complete all this on time..so many commitments tag along me currently..yesterday i'm done with the flight tix booking to Indonesia..this gonna be my fourth visit to Jakarta/Bandung..getaway to Jakarta/Bandung such an annual activity for me..those places such a shopping heaven and the place where money flows like water..u'll regret much once u step in this place since u'll keep coming to this place..and this only apply to shopaholic like me..cautious needed here..whee..this time 14 other buddies would like to join me..sounds like rombongan che kiah to Indonesia..most of the che kiah's members are first timer and i really hope they will enjoy the trip and the shopping diseases will widespread them and they will keep repeating indonesia trip same like me..no harm..ahaaa..this coming trip seems to be full shopping trip and not much sightseeing but i intend to bring them visiting Taman Mini Indonesia Indah,Jakarta. We'll be covering Jakarta and Bandung's shopping places such as Factory Outlet Bandung, Pasar Baru Bandung, Paris Van Java, Alun-alun Bandung, Tanah Abang Jakarta, Mangga Dua Jakarta, Grand Indonesia Plaza and etc. There are hundred factory outlets in Bandung and the visit wouldn’t be complete if we don’t go to the Factory Outlet that they have there. If you love some branded goods like Miss Sixty, Levi's,Polo, GAP, Esprit, Guess n etc, then this is the place for you since most of those stuff are original. Last time,I bought the same clothes in Bandung that they have at the boutique here in KL but at a much cheaper price..woww..wut a great saving.Hope our 4 days 3 nights trip goes well as expected and insya-Allah our trip will be a memorable for all...will update u guys soon..grinnn~

Sunshine after the rain

I believe everything happens for a reason although i might not see it right away.No matter what i think or feel, the most important thing is i learn, accept and move forward in a way that benefits me..much better next time i don’t make someone a priority if they only make me an option. After all this while, i learn to be accepting, kind and forgiving to myself because thru it, i only able to be accepting, kind and forgiving to others.

Happy Ramadhan Al-Mubarak everyone:)

Ramadhan is here again.May this year be a blessed ramadhan kareem for all of us...moga kita semua mendapat keberkatan di bulan mulia ini.May Allah guide everyone to the right path and forgive us all.Once again, salam Ramadhan Al-Mubarak to all Muslim all over the world,happy fasting peeps...;)

..and it only happened today!

Feeling a little down today..passing by the emotional part of life..song by erra fazira realy fit me well currently..it's painful beyond belief..i know it will be better, just i don't know how to survive until then..time to move on..now i'll become a heartless person..it much better tat way,i guess~

Penaku menari mencoretkan
Sebuah puisi kelukaan
Gurindam jiwa
Cinta dan airmata
Di kamar hati ini
Masih ada sembunyi
Kenangan yang tak mampu
Ku lemparkan jauh

Penaku menari melakarkan
Gambar kesayuan masa silam
Tinta bersulam biru
Warna kerinduan
Berkaca jernih ingatanku
Biarpun dikau telah jauh
Dari pandanganku

Manisnya pertemuan
Pahitnya perpisahan
Segala kini tidak dapat
Untukku bahasakan
Semua kini kaku
Tiada lagu merdu
Setiap madah baris kata
Bukannya lagi buatmu

Kini berteman sepi
Kini aku sendiri
Suka dan duka
Dalam meniti gelombang
Kembara panjang

Jauh melangkah pergi
Tidak menoleh lagi
Kenangan silamku
Tinggal tertulis kini
Dalam sebuah puisi

Penaku menari membariskan
Puisi sebuah pengalaman
Gurindam jiwa cinta dan airmata
Di kamar sepi ini
Titisan membasahi
Dan aku tidak tahu
Pada siapakah untukku luah rasa

My one last hope

really in kuciwa mode..nothin much i can do right now..listen repeatedly to the song by english boy band,Trademark..the tears keep coming down and i juz can't make it stop..tissue pleaseee:(

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do


That's must be something love can do..i wish~

I'll fly away and leave all this to yesterday

The moon of my night has been stolen and i'm kinda drifting away at this moment..the passing day seems to be pretty miserable and this miserableness really kill me inside out..it's really not easy to be me.Currently i'm facing a conflict of life which hurting me emotionally and break me into pieces..it's just too personal to share with..i did regret most and remark it as the biggest mistake in my life..stupid me..should give a slap to myself.I figured out that life would be exactly what i made it to be and i was prepared to make it be whatever i wanted.Just there's a shortcoming where i had no idea what i wanted it to be..everything was all confused..how dramatic my life had been and i really hate it..sounds like i have to reboot myself and give myself time and space to fix all this..damn pathetic!

Even though it has been a rough moment, there is a part of me that moving ahead into the new chapter of life and leaving all yesterday's matter behind.I hope that the coming days will bring with it d great things in life.May Allah give me strength to walk thru my hard time..i'm full of confidence that Allah's hands will always be extended to me and guide me to the right path..Allah SWT the merciful~

Hello Medan 2010

Last weekend, my family and i were on vacation to Medan which remark as capital of North Sumatra Indonesia. This trip has been planned last minutes one and as for Medan, since Airasia Low cost Airlines flies there everyday and it only takes about an hour to reach there from LCCT, so there's not a big deal i guess. We took off from LCCT at 7.45 am and arrived Polonia International Airport Medan about 7.35 am local time. Medan is the third largest city in Indonesia after Jakarta and Surabaya. We stay in Tiara Hotel Medan. Even this four stars hotel a bit pricey but it considered as worth staying hotel since it located in Medan’s city center, and give convenience and ideal for leisure to everyone.

During our stay in Medan, most all of the eat-time,we had our meals at Rumah Makan Garuda and Restoran Simpang Tiga. This restaurant served us nasi padang and we really enjoyed it.The place which brought damage to my pockets was Pasar Ikan, but not that badly koyak compared to my previous visit to Tanah Abang,Jakarta and Pasar Baru,Bandung. Those two places really made me loose my breath several times..hee. Pasar Ikan is well known with the array of kain batik jawa, hand woven telekung or mukena and batik blouses. This place is quite crowded and there's so many rows of shops selling all kinds of stuffs. I also went to Sun Plaza, one of the shopping mall in Medan.

A quite short journey, 3 days 2 nights stay was yet exciting and my Medan vacation wasn't complete since i don't have chance to visit Lake Toba, Samosir Island and Berastagi this time..it's all about time constraint..so there will be second chapter of Hello Medan..just dun know the exact date yet..grinn~